Tuesday, June 12, 2007
sigh
argued with mum yesterday
cried so much while saying what i really felt
sheesh la
even if he comes and begs me, i'll say no.
dots sia?
i'm 18 only and still not mature. why tie yourself down!
ERM.
its like she's saying things i dont agree, but i can't exactly argue back with very strong confidence because only it'll show that we're together already.. like for example, she says if we're together, we'll block everyone out in our lives, like i cannot go out with pj for lunch anymore or else he'll get jealous etc. in actual fact, thats not true! i know. but when i tell her it's not true, she'll say that SEE, i don't know how things are like in relationships. it's like that, if you're attached! DOTS. then she says like if he really loves me, he'll wait for me a few years etc. daddy didn't really love her for the first 10 years of their marriage? huh what was that man. after about 2h i just stopped arguing back. forget it man. i tried.
i managed to meet him at vivo for dinner. swensens.
it was really really awesome
sitting out there trying to solve sudoku, looking at the sea.. leaning on him..
it felt so heavenly.
i just hope everything'll be alright
that i'm not making a big mistake
i won't give him up
6:16 AM.
