Friday, June 1, 2007
been checking out a few places to stay.
God's been pretty cool i must say
was waiting to view a place at lygon street and the person was late.. quite a number of people waiting for her. looking at the exterior, i didnt really like the place anymore, but was hoping maybe the inside would be different.. while waiting, i ironically got 2 more calls from 2 agencies regarding me renting a place! haha. see, its good to tell them i'm going overseas really soon! then they'll get back to you. there were 2 girls there too. one was a friend accompanying the other to look at the place. and amazingly, as we got to talking, the friend was actually staying at nelson's college and was moving out end june! she offered to show me the place so yeah we left instead of waiting for the lady to come.. and i like nelson's! pretty nice place i must say. and moreover, that particular apartment was the one i was looking at online! 301/255 cardigan street. so yeah, i got another viewing of a place, a better place in fact compared to the one i was going for. God works miracles
i got drenched by the way, from walking the stretch college house to arrows. haha was quite fun actually, my first time being so wet. like showering on the street with clothes lol. crazy. but yeah!
today went to church to practise the songs on my own, and also some chinese songs.. haha havent played in so long man. nice piano sound, not bad :) then immediately went to check out 466 swanston street.. its a pretty nice place man. i really like it. hopefully someone moves out... please! thats my first choice, second would be nelson college.
i hope i can meet emmanuel man, next weekend. how EXCITING! omg. and *hopefully* he doesnt watch pirates by then.. cos i wanna watch with him! and he thinks im coming back only end june so he says he doesnt think we'll watch together.. but yeah. :)
i'm not going japan anymore. seriously, i'm not that sad or anything. it's okay. i was concerned about my school work, and i guess god helped me in a way? cos i was definitely in no position to say i dont want to go anymore, after all the work put in and all the documents done etc. just hope i dont have to go back that early, i want to watch harry potter! still remember the last time when i was supposed to watch with shyna, then mum made me go home? cos of some violin practising. sigh right? for goodness sake, i just ended o's on friday, the next day, saturday i wanted to go out for movie.. but NO rachel, you're not free YET, you got violin competition coming up. i mean like what the? just one movie cannot? i bought tix already, so maluating man. and all because.. i didnt tell her the show was at 9? i would have had to go home right after syo to practise then go. if im not wrong, i thought the show was 7pm, so i went with her right after yo, but yeah and so mummy came to pick me up instead. sigh!
i'm afraid of going japan also, because i honestly have no confidence i can keep up. just reading the professor's reply, forget it man. no special consideration? at all? i have to catch up 3.5 weeks of work and the next week is exam already? thats totally a no-no. i'm so dumb, seriously i'm not kidding at all. i study so hard for all the 3 mcqs but end up how? only 65%. i'm not feeling sad, because i really am okay about it. but i know its not great results at all. at all. at all. and all these is going for lectures, plus mugging hard. if i skip school, i confirm cannot catch up. even if i tried my best. and the worse is, if we push for me to go japan, i dont think i can live up to the expectations. the professors will be watching out for my results, see how well i do. and i know i wont do well. i never do well. at least not since secondary 2. i think about it many times, am i seriously so stupid? for example kelvin and pj and jac they're from neighbourhood schools, they didnt do well for PSLE nor O's, i'm sure i did better than them. but now? i'm probably worse than them. so.. i was all along stupid?
3:05 PM.
