Saturday, May 12, 2007
taking everything nicely, slowly.
'we said dominating together!'
'eh, i saw the receptionist guy again!'= " u just love hurting me!!" -emmanuel's nick
i shouldn't be so happy/excited when talking about other guys right?
i shouldnt be "concerned" about other guys?
i shouldnt make it sound like other guys 'like' me?
NO.
u shouldnt sound as thought that moment meant a lot to u/interesting/fun/exciting
okay, its the same as what i said!
we really have different views, i wouldnt mind if he said something together with a girl which is "related" to me somehow. don't you think it shows our bond? our connection? i should be proud of him. it's like, he won't be able to know that word if i hadn't taught him.. but he thinks differently.
sigh. i'm always just concerned that he'd love me less because of all these things.
but i'm learning to take it nicely now..
it's not that i don't care but, if i really worry so much, feel so sorry, feel so bad etc.. i'll kill myself. i realise that honestly, if i love someone so much, no matter how many times he hurts me or anything, i won't stop loving him any more than i already do. it's hard to believe but it's true.
i'm glad we're taking it well. at least i am, hope he is too.
10:27 PM.
