Monday, May 21, 2007
i'm tired. but its okay! i will wait for emmanuel. i must be a good and kindhearted girlfriend. don't complain, don't do anything. be understanding! it's no big deal right? he's just playing dota.. saying he'll talk to me only 1am plus. dots la but its ok!! come on. this is nothing, let him have his fun and don't pressurise him. although yeah he'll probably go to sleep pretty soon after his game.. but. it's the first time he's doing this la right. it's nothing! be accomodative :) haha it's alright!
smiley girl :D
i want to ask him about his worries actually. i remember him saying last year that he worries alot, too much probably. but i dont know what he thinks about. hmm. how about this year? i don't hear his complaints and stuff. is he just keeping them cos i'm such a busy girl already? :S
goodness, i asked him and it sounded so solemn. sheesh man. i'm scary sometimes! argh. hope i didn't freak him out man. it's just scaring me sometimes. i don't know what goes through his mind, what kind of things he thinks about, sometimes i feel like i don't know my boyfriend. i don't know his thoughts, and that scares me. what is bothering him? i don't know. because he never brings anything up with me. nothing about his thoughts, about his inner self. i hardly know that guy inside him, just that he loves me alot. share with me, dear :) am i that freaky :s
10:40 PM.
