Thursday, May 24, 2007
i really don't know what else to say to emmanuel.
not that i'm angry or anything.. but i just dont know what to say.
what can i say?
he's having a fever now at 40.4 deg, his doctor says to go back on saturday for blood test then more accurate, i feel like scolding that doctor man. what if his fever rises over these days and something worse happens? huh? how? why can't you just take the blood test now? it's really important, his fever is so high already..
god, please heal him..
i really have no idea what's wrong with him
i don't know what to do
i can't do anything for goodness sake
ask him to rest? i've been asking him to do that
what else can i say??
i can't do ANYTHING.
i don't know what's wrong with him, epstein barr virus? dengue?
messaging him is probably just tiring his poor weak body out
please God.
i know i wondered a few weeks ago, if something bad is going to happen to me. everything has been going well for me, not much troubles, smooth flowing life. there's bound to be something really bad going to happen i think.. but, at the same time.. i feel like i shouldn't think this way. because God is on my side, he'll help me..
Is it because, as he told me last night, that he's been unknowingly straying away from God? God maybe allows such things to happen so that we'll draw closer to him? Heavenly father.. please don't let him suffer so much, please? i know he knows that he's straying away and most likely will do something about it..
please, i really hope there's nothing seriously wrong with him..
my poor baby.
strengthen us oh God.
7:38 PM.
