Friday, May 25, 2007
god is awesome
emmanuel's feeling better today. much better.
my internet is working
my zoom browser is crop-usable! thats so amazing, i've tried for months and never could really work.. x)
i realise, i'd rather not talk to him than have half his attention. like if he's doing something else at the same time.. it's strange how sometimes you only figure things like these out by thinking? like it's unknowingly true that i feel that way.
i tend to bring things up to emmanuel normally. as in like during our conversations, just somehow bring it up.. not serious serious but yeah. and i think it's a good way. better than his.. leaving "clues" on his msn nick, making me ask so many times and he always dont want to tell me first. i say things like "... ya la like you lor! so bad one always.." and i mean what i say.. i don't really like the way he responds to me sometimes. he treats me like anyone else, he's too direct at times. it's like sometimes i have to think first before saying? i have to be careful he doesnt go "dots" or that i'm talking nonsense? or that i'm being childish.. or something. and i thought as a boyfriend, he should treat me differently? comfort me, listen attentively no matter how lame or childish i am? instead of giving that kind of 'duh, didn't you know?" or "dots man, you're really lame/blur" response? of course at joking times it's alright, but when i'm telling him things..
oh well. i'm not that affected by it at the moment. i have to study.
sometimes i realise, its good to take things as it is. like studying, dont ask too many qns or you wont get there.
8:20 PM.
