Thursday, April 19, 2007
i'm feeling loads better.
sigh can't stand myself man sometimes..
i'm just too paranoid.
called zel to ask about emmanuel's present
oh yeah, i was thinking of sending a parcel!
{what the hell} oh okay..i was like feeling so troubled, and just.. so irritated with her.
although i knew there wouldn't be anything up
and i shouldn't be worried
but my brain is just TOO paranoid
i hate it.
it's like i try to find reasons but at the same time, i end up coming up with even worse thoughts.
luckily i couldn't take it and talked to her..
i knew there was some reason..
but in my head i was like thinking
oh ha ha. do you usually send parcels to your friends in singapore too?
like wow, he's really such a good friend eh..
why must she always fight with me,
what competing which of us is more thoughtful and sweet to him?
like what the heck, he's my boyfriend.
i know you're really a nice sweet girl yes
but can't you just understand that you can't be so close and all that to my boyfriend?
why can't you just send a card?
i'd probably be a little disturbed yeah but better than A PARCEL!
god.
i really can't stand it when he has girls still falling over him and making obvious movements even though they know he's attached..
for me, no one really goes near me..
like "oh ok, you 're attached? okay thats good for you"
and then you don't talk to them ever again,
or they don't care about you, even as a friend, anymore..
then i'm like what the?
but anyway it's good for him, he doesnt have to worry about anything.
for me.. sigh yeah i dont have to worry cos i know he loves me.
but i just can't help it when i see/hear girls making first moves for him!
argh but anyway, it was all a MISUNDERSTANDING. yeah rachel, it always is. stop being such a bitch can. she was planning to send a card thats all, and then someone suggested present so.. they were thinking "together" in a group, to send a parcel! sheesh rachel.
grow up.
8:30 PM.
