Tuesday, April 17, 2007
was talking to mummy yesterday and hinting a little seeing if she has changed her mind or anything.. but seems not. at least she says in 6 years!! okayy, i guess that is better than when i finish studying BUT its still damn freaking long lar. SIGH. what to do rachel.
she says i can like a lot of boys! like wth? how is that possible? i can only like 1 boy.. that's like so huh if i like so many of them.. as a friend yeah okay but..???!! and i have to bring the boy home for them to see.. if they don't like then they'll have to "put a stop immediately" and too bad, "next". what the heck? if only they'll say yes to him soon or something. and then we can like "start dating" but in actual fact, continue where we are at.. but at least this time more openly. sigh mummy, why like that? stressful man.
i don't think i'm going to see his family this june. wish to stay away, cos everytime i get so scared.. and it really feels uncomfortable la, that they know and mine don't.. makes me feel so guilty. sigh. oh yeah and hope i can really surprise my darling!! haha. at least i'm still happy with the nice tie i bought for him! really like it man. it's like, everytime i look at it, i feel happy and am glad i bought it. =) thank god i managed to think of how to get it to him on his birthday.. i'll probably wrap it together with andris's present and then ask renee to pass to her the whole thing and andris can pass to him someway. cool right! hope it'll work out man.. pray pray pray.
just now i was also thinking how it would be like when we come over to melbourne after his army. will we leave together? if so.. then our parents will meet at the airport. how? will his say something? i'm sure they will. shit man? how like that? but oh well..... i'm going to leave all these till next time, when the time comes nearer. or else i'll be forever worrying like crazy.
i pray i won't regret anything.
9:04 PM.
