Monday, April 23, 2007
OMG i was so so damn happy when i read the email!
sponsored to JAPAN FOR 2 weeks!
thats AWESOME MAN, TOTALLY AWESOME.
tears of joy!! goodness.
being the only one in singapore..
omg la.
should i go?
i've no idea..
i mean i want to, yes.
but at the same time i'm afraid.
i gotta miss school you know, and its medicine you're doing rach.
like what kelvin kee said "EH GIRL, YOU'RE DOING MEDICINE LEH"
it's no easy thing, to miss school for 2 weeks. seriously.
you're going to fail.
but how? its a one in a lifetime thing!
and you'll be FAMOUS
seriously!
how about it rach?
andrew said maybe it's a calling to do music?
how would i know, god?
is music really the thing for me?
everyone says so.. but how?
kee said, dont ask for long leave absence, drop out of medicine!
but what in the world? HOW rachel.
and if that does happen, you're going to leave melbourne?
thats a drastic change in your life rach.
emmanuel? ahhh.
but again, maybe its just happen to be like that?
like.. i'm thinking too much? maybe music stuff is just the extra bits.. and not necessarily to make me change course or something.
although.. ever since i've done medicine.. i've like gotten the music award in school, became LTCL high scorer, had a concert to perform somemore! and now this? i've no idea man.
it's decision-makings again.
gotta sacrifice something.
if you go, you sacrifice school work, which could be failing your exam.
if you dont go, you give up this opportunity.
how?
i dont want to regret..
sigh.
through this, i found out something too.
despite all the friends i got.. i couldn't really find someone to share my joy with.
besides emmanuel of course =)
but.. well.
it's like they'll probably be happy for me but. yeah thats it?
not someone to really understand the joy and everything..
i felt a little lost.
oh and today's exam went quite well!
i think i'd be able to get at least 15/20! hopefully man!
slept about 2plus hours last night but i'm still alive =)
just gonna lie in bed for a while. i need to relax!!
really feels like holiday today.
i love it this way.
but if only emmanuel's here.
lying in his embrace, will be so nice.
sigh.
god speak to me, please
8:06 PM.
