Saturday, March 31, 2007
zhaokai called me at 10:19am
"your darling nudged me like don't know what, he asks you to go online.."
haha.
apparently he got a nightmare himself!
goodness, what a qiao scary night..
he always makes frequent visits to see me..even on weekends!then one day he came over..saw me and wanted to hug me.but then i was angry, and asked if he remember what date it was.. 23rd feb [or march]he thought hard but couldn't get an answer,then i walked away.i went rollerblading with his brother, john,..
he messaged me and i didn't reply..
seemed like we were going to break up..
oh well.
it's cool that we both get to talk to each other about our dreams when we need to..
i guess, him being in singapore is good in a way.
helps me to start my course well, get the hang of everything..
i don't know really how it would be like.
if i can continue with my mugging with him around..
i know i should but then, it hasn't really happened before.. without me feeling guilty.
on one hand, i know i must study hard because work is important. but on the other hand, i didn't want to neglect him and also, didn't want him to see me as being similar to cherlyn. i'd hate for him to say "you're.. just like cherlyn" dejectedly. still remember a few days ago, his msn personal message was "missing my dearest rachie.. but she has no time for me". his current one is quite sweet.. "*tHe.LiL.bOy* "heart pain pain, miss little rachie".
the last exam here, the mcq one, i got 13/20 and i guess i'm alright with it. i knew i wasn't fully prepared but that's the last time i'm going to be so rushed and all. i will do well for all the upcoming exams! GO RACH! a few days before the exam, i dreamt that the exam was going to be at 6am! so early man. and the night before the exam, i dreamt of getting back my results and when i saw that i got 10/20 i was over the moon! all i wanted really was to pass.. didn't want to retake the exam again and having to come back during the easter break.. sigh it wasn't my best. not exactly, having to juggle spending time with emmanuel - it was his holiday and i was a main reason why he was here, the least thing i could do was to spend the time with him, as much as possible.
i'm always afraid i'm spending too much time studying but then again,
rachel this is your future.
you cannot neglect it, not even for your boyfriend alright?
that's one big reason why your parents don't want you to be attached too.
show it to them..
you can do it.
go rach.
9:11 AM.
