Saturday, March 31, 2007
went for cell and prepared for tomorrow's lunch.
can just remember last year, when zhaokai helped out with the preparation.. it was i think the day before zelina's birthday or something, and he just found out that zel bought the exact commonwealth shirt that we bought for her.. so was panicking. i said i was at church and he actually waited outside the church.. goodness. when my cell was going out for dinner, they saw him there so invited him along too.. sigh.
anyway, yeah we went to shanghai dumpling house for dinner.. was "craving" for it! haha =) ate relatively little, compared to what i usually do but i was very full still! don't know whats with my stomach man. probably some mental thing. eating a lot or little just doesnt really register in my brain. the main thing is just finishing up whatever i have in front of me lol. emmanuel says i eat alot for a girl.. and yeah i totally agree. oh well. getting fat. sigh.
finally when i got home from dinner.. it was almost 10pm. nathaniel was asking me out for a drink.. sigh, i didn't really want to go. i even messaged him saying that i was tired and if we could meet in singapore another time.. i guess normally, people will just say okay cos they wont want to force.. but he replied saying just for a short while and a drink.. so.. haiz okay la. in addition to it, i was feeling bit bad too. cos today is his graduation and i didn't go and see.. and he come all the way to melbourne.. oh well, a drink won't hurt. so yeah talked about usual music stuff.. nothing much.
goodness, dad suddenly wants to talk to me. why? i'm feeling so scared. my heart is beating so hard, i can see my hair moving in front of my eyes because of the heartbeat. i really desperately hope, she didn't find out anything. god please help me. my dreams cant be that true please..
9:28 PM.
