Friday, March 9, 2007
medicine has turned out quite differently from what i thought it would be like. i didn't know that doctors actually talk to patients about their lives too, asking "personal" questions.. i thought only counsellors do that. only they listen to problems of people.. and thats why i wanted to do that! funny right? be a psychologist or counsellor or something like that.. but amazingly, i realise that i AM doing that in my current course. and that TOTALLY ROCKS so much! haha.
school is alright at the moment, glad that i've friends .. everyone's just so nice, as in the trinity medical students. =) and i feel more comfortable with our e14 clique too.. cool. like just now, we met for dinner at correttos and douglas was talking to zelina asking why kelvin didn't join us.. then they were saying he must be mugging, medicine very difficult and busy.. then he said "how come rachel can join us". you see, that kelvin will never change man. he's just a self-centered guy, i've known that and i will NEVER like him. NEVER. in fact, i think we don't really click that well now even. there's this barrier in between us.. like when we're together, we'll not talk.. not really. theres just this thing about him i cannot stand. okay, looking at him.. yes, he does look fine, looks like a doctor yes, dresses well, does things 'professionally'.. i mean like he just is able to command respect from the others.. who don't know him well.
in truth, he's just one sad cased selfish guy who just isn't worth making friends with. at least that's what *i* think. he'll not lend you notes, not ever. he's just the kiasu kind, he only cares about himself, whether things will benefit HIMSELF, and the worst is, he doesn't value friendship. he really doesn't. look at the way he treated us last year, it's not like we did anything wrong but he probably just wanted to study? didnt want us to "affect" his grades? like Hello?? what kind of thinking is that. ever since then, my impression of him has deteriorated. i've not once been sad as in really sad that he did that, but more of, angry and just looking down at such a character. only after end of year exams then he join us again? WOW funny right kelvin. you think we're just a bunch of people and YOU yourself can decide whether you want us or not? you think we die die also want you isit? i can't wait for the day you get turned down.. and you start understanding what friendship is. like now that school has started, he doesnt join us anymore. FUNNY LA. KELVIN KOAY you watch it. i'm not going to do that.. never. i'm just going to study hard, make valuable friendships which means not sacrificing themselves just for my sake, and just having fun.. enjoying uni.
doctors are meant to be able to bond well with people. its communication skills for goodness sake. and YOU just do the opposite, blocking people away and just doing things for your own selfish reasons. ROREAL. you're going DOWN kelvin.
still remember the first ICM class, we went to class together and he said, "don't sit next to me. i want to get to know more people" like what the hell. you think i want to sit with you isit kelvin koay. you think you're all that great? watch it really. i can't wait for the day you finally wake up and understand what you've been missing out all these years.. its just such a pity. i'm feeling sorry for you.
9:24 PM.
